Feelings

I am moving back to Arizona in a few days and all I want to do is cry. I know it is what I am suppose to be doing, but I can't help but feel sad. I have made so many wonderful friends while I have been here in Utah, and I am very afraid that I will never see them again, after Lisa's wedding of course. It is not like when I moved to Thatcher. My friends were three hours away and I would see them regularly, but Provo is 13 hours away, and that isn't something you can do over the weekend.

On top of those feelings, I feel like I am a failure for not getting my homework done. I know it is my fault, and I have no good reason to give for it not being done. I feel like I have let everyone down. I feel like I am letting my Bishopric down, Lisa and Steven down, my roommates down, my parents down, and my family down. I feel like no matter what choice I make, others will suffer the consequences of my actions.

What I want more than anything is to talk to Jenelle. I can hear her voice in my head, but it isn't the same. I want my best friend, aside from my Mom. That conversation is something that is going to have to wait till January though. I haven't been praying like I should lately, I think that is part of the problem. I need to talk to my Heavenly Father.