Have you ever had one of those days when you are overwhelmed with how far you have to go to get to the Celestial Kingdom? I had one of those days today. I t is actually kind of depressing. I know I am not perfect and I have a ways to go, but I like to think that I am doing okay. On day s like today though, I feel so unworthy. I look back on my life and see all the things I have done wrong and I am overwhelmed with all the changes I must make. I have a love/hate relationship with enlightening days like today.
I am also frustrated. I have been doing so well not thinking about men, and lately my will is breaking. I want get married, not for the sake of getting married, but I need to concentrate on my school work. There are several men flitting through my mind and if I thought I stood a chance with them, I would pursue them. I feel so inferior to the men sometimes. I know I shouldn't, but the fact remains that I do. Sometimes I wish that someone would set-up dates for me so that I wouldn't feel too awkward. Oh, well I will have to plug away on my own.
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