Lingering dreams

I hate bad dreams with the trappings of good ones. They linger on and make my day not so nice. I am grateful that the dreams are not true though.

On a much happier note, does anyone want to move to the Gila Valley and help me start a bakery? There is the cutes store front ever open on Main Street. I thought a cute cafe in the front where people could sit and eat their purchases and drink coffee/tea/hot chocolate and peruse the internet via the free wi-fi. I just have no idea on how to start a business.

There are no fresh bakeries here. The ones at the stores all get pre-made frozen dough and bake it in the store. The town really needs a real bakery, oh and donuts. Because there are no good donuts here, NONE.

The Joys of English

School pride runs deep where I live. That is why I feel very strongly about having a firm grasp on the English language if you are going to cheer for your team. This morning as I was walking around down town, I saw this painted on the back of a truck: "GO MITEY BULLDOGS". I really hope those bulldogs can get over their mite infestation before they play on Friday. I would hate to be the opposing team.

Happy

I have been thinking a lot lately about whether or not I am happy. I really believe that happiness is a choice we make. I think that despite what is going on around us we can have pure joy in our lives. So, today, I am going to choose to be happy. I think I also need to start doing my service. I am just happier when I am helping others. It is so true. I have been going out of my way to help some of the clients get what they need at work and I have been feeling much more fulfilled in my job. It isn't anything big, in fact I usually just find them a piece of paper, but hey it helps.

So, let us be happy.

Mornings

I will fully admit that I am not a morning person. I would rather lay in bed until 10:00 a.m. rolls around and go to bed at 1:00 or 2:00 in the morning. That said, I have been getting up for work on time. With the cooling off of the weather (I LOVE IT) it has been harder for me to get up. Not because it is darker outside when I have to get up, but because the covers are so inviting. The warm spot on the bed makes it so I have no desire to even move. I lay there, curled up with everything covered but my nose (I have a thing against stale air, but that is a subject for a different post), in my cocoon of warmth, wishing I could stay. But I get up and get dressed.

One day, I won't have to. Like Saturday. I can lay there and contemplate the meaning of my weird dreams. I really think I should, maybe then I will stop having them.

Friends from the Past

I have been having weird dreams. Not bad weird, just weird. Almost all of these dreams have involved friends from long ago. That isn't the weird part. Going to church at a mall or there being a mall that fills up with water every couple hours so the fish can swim are. Anyway, I have visited with Sarah, Lisa, Katie, Dawn, I think Stacy, and various others who I have not seen for a while.

I would like to take this moment to say that I miss you and apparently I am thinking about you. I hope one day that I will be able to see you all in person.

Blah

Last week I started to get really blah about work and life in general. I thought that the three day weekend would help, and it did, sort of. I woke up this morning with no desire, whatsoever to get out of bed, let alone get up and go to work (although I am proud of myself that I made it to work on time). It doesn't help that I am tired today.

On a completely unrelated note, I was wondering if any of you out there know how to get a ring off that is stuck. I need this for a friend and the only thing we have heard is lose weight (which she is, but her fingers swell with water after her walks) or to tie a sting around your finger and see if you can squish it enough to slide the ring off. We haven't tried the second method yet. I think we might try this weekend while Austin is at work.

A word to the wise, don't run out of toner if you need to print. We ran out yesterday and the only place in town that we can get a cartridge at is sold out at the moment. I really hope my Costco order gets here tomorrw, otherwise I will be so behind I might cry. So many copies to make and no tone makes for very slow days. I am really grateful that I din't close files yesterday, otherwise I would be sitting here waiting for the phone to ring. No matter how long I stare at it, nothing happens. I get up an leave for lunch and I get calls galore.

Sorry I am rambling. I think I will go to bed early tonight and see if that helps. I might also try to do jumping jacks, in my heels to see if that will invigorate my mind and keep me awake.

Please

Yesterday I recieved a call from my mom that one of my cousin's little boys was hit by a car and killed. Please keep them in your prayers. He was only 2.

Guess What?

SEVEN months ago, I was married. I know it isn't a year yet, but I just wanted to share my joy.

Public Service Announcement

Attention: do not let your finger come in contact with your eye. It will cause pain and possibly some tears. Thank you.

PS~ My eye is fine it just waters a little.

The Forth Nephite

I got the chance to read Jeffrey S. Savage's The Forth Nephite before it came out (its my first ARC, I'm quite proud I have an ARC). It was really good. It is written for teen readers, which happen to be my favorite age group for books. There is time traveling, suspense, and a smidgen of romance (I'm talking tiny). I have always enjoyed Savage's voice when he writes. It is stark, without being bland or harsh, yet descriptive. I also have an affinity for his use of vocabulary.

The Forth Nephite is about a high school football player, Kaleo Steele, that gets caught breaking school rules by his seminary teacher. To get out of the mess he promises his teacher that he will visit a man in Salt Lake by the name of Ladan (the only character I had issues with his name, unfortunately I think of Genie in Disney's Alladin every time I read his name). Ladan sends Kaleo back in time on a journey of discovery.

I did have a love/hate relationship with the set up of his book. He started the chapters of Nephite with a small excerpt of what I imagine as Kaleo's journal. They foreshadow some events, but sometimes I think they are kind of pointless. The book is written in first person, so we already know what Kaleo is thinking and feeling. I guess I can't really figure out what to make of them.

I enjoyed reading this book and look forward to reading the next in the series. For those of yo who may be thinking,"I don't know, I am not really a reader," I would totally suggest getting Nephite on CD and playing it while you drive. It will make you want to go on a road trip just so you can find out what happens next. The Forth Nephite comes out in August.

Prayer

First off, I did go to Anne's blessing. She is adorable and likes to dance. Velika was busy making a cake, Anne didn't want to sit still so she would cry when my mom held her (it is hard for my mom to get up and move around), so I held her and danced around the room with her. She stopped crying, so that means she liked it right? Plus if I just walked and rocked her she would start to whimper. So, I am guessing she likes to dance.

Last Sunday (July 11th), Jarom spoke in church. I have been having a hard time lately and had forgotten to say my prayers that morning, so in a brief plea sent heavenward in the car on my way to church, I asked for comfort. I had tears rolling down my cheeks for most of sacrament meeting. Not to fear, they were tears of joy and comfort. I was late and made it just in time for the Sacrament. Well I usually look through the hymn book during the sacrament so I can focus on the Savior. That day I flipped to Dear to the Heart of The Shepherd, and let me tell you, there wasn't a word on that page that wasn't meant for me that day.

The talks were all on Elder Eyring's talk Help Them on Their Way Home. I don't remember much of what was said, but I did take note (something I haven't done for ages) on my phone, because the words that were said I needed to hear.

Tuesday night I woke up from a nightmare. When I woke up, I was awake, not grogy or sleepy, AWAKE. I said a prayer and I was able to go back to sleep quickly. That usually doesn't happen when I wake up like that in the middle of the night. I have to lay there in the dark for a while or read until I fall asleep again. I haven't been sleeping very well, so I was glad I was able to curl back up and sleep so quickly.

So the point of this post is to tell you, prayer works. I know you may not always get such quick answers as I did, but it works.

What to do?

My brother is blessing his baby girl this weekend. I really, REALLY want to go. Austin is not so keen on going. I can't go down in my car for lack of gas money, but I hate having no wheels when I am in the valley, so I am disinclined to go with my parents. I know I am whining. I feel better putting it out there though.

I love my crazy dreams

This morning I had a dream about my friend Bethany. I went to visit her and her family (I actually haven't got to see her since he wedding). I road this contraption that looked like a cross between a bicycle and a skate board all the way from Thatcher to Mesa (roughly 147 miles) with my dog on my lap. I visited with Bethany and her family and then headed home. Her husband Daryl gave me a whole roasted suckling pig to take home.

I love that I can entertain myself with my dreams after I am awake.

Movies/TV and Real Life

Since I don't have a washer and dryer, nor anyplace to put them, my mom graciously volunteers to do our laundry every week. So yes, my mom still does my laundry. I know it's sad.

Anyway, when we were going home from picking up our laundry at my parent's house on Monday, Austin saw a car accident (we were in separate cars). A truck hit a motorcycle and the cyclist went skidding across the road. He had road rash and some other scrapes, but he was wearing a helmet, and he got up and walked back across the street. Austin stuck around until the police came and filled out a witness statement, like a good citizen, he was the only one of the three witnesses who did.

After we went home he said, "that was different from seeing that on TV." Having witnessed car accidents before, I knew what he was saying. Austin likes watching shows/movies that have to do with cars. 99% of his video games are car related. He had never witnessed a real accident before. The feelings and emotions that happen when something like that happen are completely different, than watching a wreck on TV.

I have never been one to like watching things blow up or crash, for the main reason that I have witnessed my share of accidents and had enough close calls for myself to know the anxiety that crashes cause. I asked Austin if he now kinda understood my point of view and he nodded in a noncommittal fashion.

I doubt it will change the fact that we have been watching the Dukes of Hazzard (old school) every night until we finish the season, but at least he kinda sorta knows what is going through my head when I see Rosco and Cletus collide.

Catch Up

Let's see...what has happened since the last post. Lots!

1. The GILA VALLEY TEMPLE was dedicated. I love it. I have only gone once, I can't wait to go back. Beautiful!

2. We got a little Ford Focus. I can't choose betweennaming it Foci or Forsyth, but Austin doesn't like either of the names. He wants to name it Fred, Focus Fred. Even though it is just a Focus, I think it is more exciting than Fred.

3. I love Austin more every day.

I think that is it for now. Oh, and Jarom, my baby brother, comes home from his mission on June 28th. I am so excited.

I am obsessed

I have Internet at work so I check the blogs I follow constantly. However, I give nothing back. I don't ever update mine nor do I leave comments on other's blogs. I am such a hypocrite. I am sorry.

Hamilton Hand Blender

Because I am selfish and have coveted my mom"s Hamilton since I moved back for Utah, I am posting this to refer you to Pots and Pins, a delightful website with cooks and crafters at heart. Please go check it out. She is having a contest for a Hamilton Hand Blender. If you win, I want the spoons...for referring you, of course.

Finally!

I have finally gotten to a computer with my pictures on it, the internet, and time altogether. The result is that you now can look at what are my favorite pictures.

For some reason I love this picture. I am not fond of the tilt effect as a general rule, but with this picture, it just works. As a side note, I love kissing Austin, but I hat being told to kiss. It is really kind of annoying. It makes it awkward for me. A kiss is something special that I don't share with others, which makes kissing on demand so weird for me.

I think this picture does two things. One, it captures the joy we are feeling. Two, it shows a level of comfort that I have never experienced. Living with Austin has be an adjustment in someways, yet it feels so natural that it feels like we have always been that way. I think this picture captures that.

I am so proud of my flowers. I almost threw them through the window a couple of times while I was arranging them, but I finally got them to work out well enough to my liking. I also really like the pink band around my dress. It is very me.

This kid, was my ring bearer. He is my nephew and I am sure that Velika will not appreciate having his picture up on the web, but he was too cute to leave out. Every time the photographer would ask us to say cheese, he say it right after the click of the camera. This is one of my most favorite pictures, he really is as mischievous as that smile says he is.

Sadly, that is all for now. I have to get back to my primary lesson and laundry.

Dearest Blog

I would like to apologize for neglecting you for so long. I am tempted everyday to write on you at work. I want you to know that I will post some wedding pictures on you. I hope we can breach the gap that has come between us and once again be the best of friends.

Love,
Kelsi Rose