So I am up in Utah for Lisa and Steve's wedding. Without going into detail, the title of this post says it all. I think my body is retarded.
On a different note, I need to think of something to say at Lisa and Steven's ring ceremony. I an a bit nervous because everyone's attention will be in me and it is something that Lisa and Steven and everyone else will remember from that day. I am also nervous that I am going to cry and look like a retard. It's true. I have time so I need to get it done before Friday.
I am way excited for the wedding though. I am excited about the flowers and dresses, everything. I hope I can tag along tomorrow when they go to see the decorations. It should be good. I want Lisa's day to be awesome, I hope everything goes well on Friday.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
100 Things About Me...Continued
As I was thinking of things to write about me, I came up with some dreams that I had as a child. Some were reoccurring dreams and the others are just random dreams that I had. I just wonder why the dreams I remember are so weird.
Dream 1: This one is a reoccurring dream, In this dream I am Dorthy and the Wicked Witch of the West is chasing me. I run into this room that has a bunch of furniture in it. I hide behind an opened back chair with a wicker seat. Sometimes the witch can see me and other times she can't. I have my basket and Toto with me. I think Toto has barked a couple of times and that attracts the witch's gaze if I am hidden behind the chair.
Dream 2: Another reoccurring dream. I am walking around the corner of the house I grew up in. Sometimes I still live there and I am trying to go home, other times I am walking away to where I live now (in the dream). As I get to the side gate (the backyard had a trailer gate off the street) two big Dobermans come out of the ally and growl and snap at me. I have never been attacked in the dream because I wake up, but I always have the feeling that if I had stayed asleep, I would have died.
Dream 3: This dream is once in a lifetime weird. In the backyard of the house I grew up in, I had a play house in the far corner and a storage shed along the back fence. My house had a back covered porch with a wall around it. There was one doorway in. I start in the play house and I have to get to my house. I run to the shed because something is chasing me, but it can't get inside buildings. When I open the shed door I find the Ghost Busters, the cartoon guys only in the flesh, complete with Slimer, only he is more cartoonish. I explain my problem and they let me go through the shed because the opposite door of the shed is closer to the opening to the porch. I run across the yard and make it to the sliding glass door. I walk in and run to my parent's room to tell them all the horrible things that happened to me. I crawl in their bed and lay between them. While I am hugging them, they turn into zombieish monsters. Then I wake up.
Dream 4: Luckily I only had this dream once, I was so scared after this dream. I was in the house I grew up in and I had this cool talking dog, his name was D.O.G. that I wanted to get inside because it was going to rain. I tried everything, but he wanted to stay outside to the very last moment. So I started closing the door and counting down from 10, when I got to 1 the door would be closed. As I said two he jumped over the wall of the porch and ran for the door. I was closing the very last crack as I said one and just at the last second D.O.G. got his muzzle in the door and I closed the door and it and it came right off. As a sat on the floor with D.O.G.'s muzzle in my hand and stroking his head, I woke up. I was seriously crying.
Those are a few of the dreams that I remember from my childhood. They were really weird the first time, but on further refection I have to wonder what I was thinking about to cause such strange dreams.
Dream 1: This one is a reoccurring dream, In this dream I am Dorthy and the Wicked Witch of the West is chasing me. I run into this room that has a bunch of furniture in it. I hide behind an opened back chair with a wicker seat. Sometimes the witch can see me and other times she can't. I have my basket and Toto with me. I think Toto has barked a couple of times and that attracts the witch's gaze if I am hidden behind the chair.
Dream 2: Another reoccurring dream. I am walking around the corner of the house I grew up in. Sometimes I still live there and I am trying to go home, other times I am walking away to where I live now (in the dream). As I get to the side gate (the backyard had a trailer gate off the street) two big Dobermans come out of the ally and growl and snap at me. I have never been attacked in the dream because I wake up, but I always have the feeling that if I had stayed asleep, I would have died.
Dream 3: This dream is once in a lifetime weird. In the backyard of the house I grew up in, I had a play house in the far corner and a storage shed along the back fence. My house had a back covered porch with a wall around it. There was one doorway in. I start in the play house and I have to get to my house. I run to the shed because something is chasing me, but it can't get inside buildings. When I open the shed door I find the Ghost Busters, the cartoon guys only in the flesh, complete with Slimer, only he is more cartoonish. I explain my problem and they let me go through the shed because the opposite door of the shed is closer to the opening to the porch. I run across the yard and make it to the sliding glass door. I walk in and run to my parent's room to tell them all the horrible things that happened to me. I crawl in their bed and lay between them. While I am hugging them, they turn into zombieish monsters. Then I wake up.
Dream 4: Luckily I only had this dream once, I was so scared after this dream. I was in the house I grew up in and I had this cool talking dog, his name was D.O.G. that I wanted to get inside because it was going to rain. I tried everything, but he wanted to stay outside to the very last moment. So I started closing the door and counting down from 10, when I got to 1 the door would be closed. As I said two he jumped over the wall of the porch and ran for the door. I was closing the very last crack as I said one and just at the last second D.O.G. got his muzzle in the door and I closed the door and it and it came right off. As a sat on the floor with D.O.G.'s muzzle in my hand and stroking his head, I woke up. I was seriously crying.
Those are a few of the dreams that I remember from my childhood. They were really weird the first time, but on further refection I have to wonder what I was thinking about to cause such strange dreams.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Finished! Again
I just finished my last make up assignment. Now all I have to do is wait and see if Dr. Porter will give the points I need to graduate. I just hope and pray that this turns out like I want it too.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
100 Things About Me
I saw this on a friend's blog so I thought I would try it, I might have to think about this for a while.
100. I am the only girl in my family (aside from my mom thank goodness)
99. I am the first college graduate on my mom's side (Bachelors)
98. I like old movies
97. I love musicals, it has been way too long since I have seen one live
96. I wanted to be a veterinarian (since I was in the 3rd grade) until my freshman year in college and my best friend who also wanted to be a veterinarian in the 3rd grade changed her mind several times and is now in vet school
95. I love saying cheese at the end of conversations thanks to a youtube video and a really good friend
94. Once when I was little, I didn't eat for three days because I wasn't hungry. I then threw up strait bile one night and was hungry in the morning
93. Bunny vipers can attack at any moment, you have to be on the look out. If you see little Bunny Foo-Foo, you could be in danger
92. My dog's name is Jacey Lynn
91. I love Promised Land Dairy chocolate milk, but they don't sell it in Arizona or Utah
90. In lieu of Promise Land Dairy chocolate milk I like Silk chocolate milk, it has to be Silk
89. I am still afraid of the dark, it's true
88. I want to live on a ranch and have horses
87. I love learning about what makes families tick
86. When I was baptized, I was ready before my dad so I played at the podium at the back of th room
85. I use to tell myself stories to get to sleep
84. In one of my stories I was pregnant so I stuffed a soccer ball up my shirt and fell asleep like that
83. If I ever became a millionaire, I would build a trampoline room with padded walls to play in in my house
82. I would also have a room that was all mirrors
81. I love to sing in the shower
80. When walking around the grocery store if they are playing a song I know, I sing along
79. One of my favorite sounds is my dog snoring, she is very loud
78. I was a total tomboy when I was younger, except for the frilly Sunday dresses
77. When I was a little girl, I was getting dressed for church and I pulled out my favorite dress and it had a cockroach on it, hence I loath cockroaches
76. I was born in Humble, Texas; so I came from humble beginnings
75. I was the last girl in my ward to get the old Young Women's Award
74. I often have several books I am reading at once
73. Depending on length and interest, I can finish multiple books in one day
72. I have more books than I know what to do with, and I plan on getting more
71. I didn't have to pay full price for my dog because my brother's friend put shaving cream on our car and ruined the finish
70. I survive BYU single, hallelujah!
69. I have been a bride's maid twice, almost
68. I am short and I revel in it
67. I like going on road trips, it depresses me that gas prices are so high
66. If at all possible, I love to sleep in
65. I am a night owl, I prefer to stay up late
64. My mom is my very best friend in the world, I tell here pretty much everything
63. Sometimes I dance instead of walk, it is so much fun
62. I have always wanted to go cupping, but haven't had the opportunity yet
61. I like to write poetry, but I am not very good
60. My best known poem is about gas
59. I look exactly like my Great-Grandma Martineau
58. I often wish I could fly
57. Swings are my favorite thing to play on at the park
56. I love playing tag at malls because you can't really run
55. I use to live in Illinois
54. I have always been a Westwood Warrior, even in my youth
53. I had mono and I didn't even get to kiss anybody to get it
52. That's right ladies and gentlemen, I am still VL
51. I like stealing people's cameras and taking pictures
50. I was very shy till I was in my 20's
49. I love Vancouver, British Colombia, Canada
48. My favorite hamburger place to eat is Red Robin, yum
47. I sprained my ankle falling from a rope swing
46. I have been to the Grand Canyon twice
45. The longest I have ever lived in a house was 9 years
44. The shortest I have lived in a house was 8 months
43. I have had my own room since I was 9 years old (except for a couple of months when I shared with my cousin
42. If I have a full or bigger bed, I like to sleep in the very middle
41. My favorite movie when I was younger was The Little Mermaid, when I was upset I would sing Ariel's song
40. I once was so mad at my mom that I was going to lock myself in the bathroom and never come out. I moved all my toys in and made the bathtub my bed. My older brother got caught passing food through the crack in the door and I had to move out of the bathroom
39. My brothers once thought it would be really funny if they locked me in the outdoor laundry room. I was trapped for about 45 minutes till my mom came home and got me out
38. I hate when my hands get dirty. Feeling dirt between my fingers makes me cringe
37. I could never get veneers on my teeth. I get grossed out teeth are misshapen or drilled
36. I desperately want braces and plan on getting them after I have insurance
35. When I get stressed I can't sleep and I have been known to go several days with only a few hours of sleep
34. I have always wanted red hair, I have no idea why
33. Even though I am more English, I claim Ireland as my ancestral home
32. I am still friends with my elementary school best friend, even though we haven't seen each other for 13 years
31. I use to play the viola and I kinda want to again
30. I love stain glass, darn my expensive hobbies
29. I use to have a horrible temper. I got tire of apologizing for hurting people's feelings so I learned to control it
28. I can throw pots on a wheel
27. I want to name my first daughter Savanah Rose
26. I want my first son to be named Robert Kent
25. One of my nicknames growing up was Hawaiian for woman
24. I have been called by all three of my brother's names
23. I have seen all the boys in my immediate family in a dress
22. My favorite family history stories are in a book called Don't Let the Truth Get in the Way of a Good Story
21. I am a truck girl, I want one so bad
20. My first car's name was Kricket because she made a chirping noise ever since I bought her
19. I often wish I lived back when girls wore fancy dresses all the time, provided that I was one of the rich girls that got to wear them
18. I have a thing for crinoline dresses
17. I like to hang out with tall people, honestly all my good friends are at least 3 inches taller than me
16. I love to cook, I want to open a restaurant with my family, who also like to cook
15. I am good at making up stories about myself that aren't true
14. I was so yellow when I was born that my parents called me the Yellow Rose of Texas
13. My mom stayed in the hospital the longest with me even though I had siblings that were in the hospital longer than I was
12. I always wanted a sister so sometimes I would put my youngest brother in a dress and call him Jessica, but I didn't put a rag on his head
11. I almost lit my house on fire with the help of my older brother
10. My older brother and I use to get in my mom's spice cabinet and mix potions for my younger brother, he always drank them
9. I was an officer in the FFA
8. I place in the top 10 all three years on my judging team in the FFA
7. I took best of show for biscuit at the county fair when I was 9 years old
6. I am really vein and have been know to stare at myself in the mirror for hours (okay maybe not that long, but still)
5. I hate being the break upper, I would rather be the break uppie
4. I love to dance and sometimes I will dance to the music in my head
3. I hate unloading the dishwasher, I would rather load it
2. I am not ticklish unless it is a boy, and even then sometimes I can control myself, unless I think he is cute and then I am a goner
1. I have weird toes, I know of only two other people that have toes like mine (I live in Arizona so I have seen a lot of feet) and I am related to them. Everyone that has seen my toes says they are short and stubby and I have to agree
That was much harder than I thought. Cheese.
100. I am the only girl in my family (aside from my mom thank goodness)
99. I am the first college graduate on my mom's side (Bachelors)
98. I like old movies
97. I love musicals, it has been way too long since I have seen one live
96. I wanted to be a veterinarian (since I was in the 3rd grade) until my freshman year in college and my best friend who also wanted to be a veterinarian in the 3rd grade changed her mind several times and is now in vet school
95. I love saying cheese at the end of conversations thanks to a youtube video and a really good friend
94. Once when I was little, I didn't eat for three days because I wasn't hungry. I then threw up strait bile one night and was hungry in the morning
93. Bunny vipers can attack at any moment, you have to be on the look out. If you see little Bunny Foo-Foo, you could be in danger
92. My dog's name is Jacey Lynn
91. I love Promised Land Dairy chocolate milk, but they don't sell it in Arizona or Utah
90. In lieu of Promise Land Dairy chocolate milk I like Silk chocolate milk, it has to be Silk
89. I am still afraid of the dark, it's true
88. I want to live on a ranch and have horses
87. I love learning about what makes families tick
86. When I was baptized, I was ready before my dad so I played at the podium at the back of th room
85. I use to tell myself stories to get to sleep
84. In one of my stories I was pregnant so I stuffed a soccer ball up my shirt and fell asleep like that
83. If I ever became a millionaire, I would build a trampoline room with padded walls to play in in my house
82. I would also have a room that was all mirrors
81. I love to sing in the shower
80. When walking around the grocery store if they are playing a song I know, I sing along
79. One of my favorite sounds is my dog snoring, she is very loud
78. I was a total tomboy when I was younger, except for the frilly Sunday dresses
77. When I was a little girl, I was getting dressed for church and I pulled out my favorite dress and it had a cockroach on it, hence I loath cockroaches
76. I was born in Humble, Texas; so I came from humble beginnings
75. I was the last girl in my ward to get the old Young Women's Award
74. I often have several books I am reading at once
73. Depending on length and interest, I can finish multiple books in one day
72. I have more books than I know what to do with, and I plan on getting more
71. I didn't have to pay full price for my dog because my brother's friend put shaving cream on our car and ruined the finish
70. I survive BYU single, hallelujah!
69. I have been a bride's maid twice, almost
68. I am short and I revel in it
67. I like going on road trips, it depresses me that gas prices are so high
66. If at all possible, I love to sleep in
65. I am a night owl, I prefer to stay up late
64. My mom is my very best friend in the world, I tell here pretty much everything
63. Sometimes I dance instead of walk, it is so much fun
62. I have always wanted to go cupping, but haven't had the opportunity yet
61. I like to write poetry, but I am not very good
60. My best known poem is about gas
59. I look exactly like my Great-Grandma Martineau
58. I often wish I could fly
57. Swings are my favorite thing to play on at the park
56. I love playing tag at malls because you can't really run
55. I use to live in Illinois
54. I have always been a Westwood Warrior, even in my youth
53. I had mono and I didn't even get to kiss anybody to get it
52. That's right ladies and gentlemen, I am still VL
51. I like stealing people's cameras and taking pictures
50. I was very shy till I was in my 20's
49. I love Vancouver, British Colombia, Canada
48. My favorite hamburger place to eat is Red Robin, yum
47. I sprained my ankle falling from a rope swing
46. I have been to the Grand Canyon twice
45. The longest I have ever lived in a house was 9 years
44. The shortest I have lived in a house was 8 months
43. I have had my own room since I was 9 years old (except for a couple of months when I shared with my cousin
42. If I have a full or bigger bed, I like to sleep in the very middle
41. My favorite movie when I was younger was The Little Mermaid, when I was upset I would sing Ariel's song
40. I once was so mad at my mom that I was going to lock myself in the bathroom and never come out. I moved all my toys in and made the bathtub my bed. My older brother got caught passing food through the crack in the door and I had to move out of the bathroom
39. My brothers once thought it would be really funny if they locked me in the outdoor laundry room. I was trapped for about 45 minutes till my mom came home and got me out
38. I hate when my hands get dirty. Feeling dirt between my fingers makes me cringe
37. I could never get veneers on my teeth. I get grossed out teeth are misshapen or drilled
36. I desperately want braces and plan on getting them after I have insurance
35. When I get stressed I can't sleep and I have been known to go several days with only a few hours of sleep
34. I have always wanted red hair, I have no idea why
33. Even though I am more English, I claim Ireland as my ancestral home
32. I am still friends with my elementary school best friend, even though we haven't seen each other for 13 years
31. I use to play the viola and I kinda want to again
30. I love stain glass, darn my expensive hobbies
29. I use to have a horrible temper. I got tire of apologizing for hurting people's feelings so I learned to control it
28. I can throw pots on a wheel
27. I want to name my first daughter Savanah Rose
26. I want my first son to be named Robert Kent
25. One of my nicknames growing up was Hawaiian for woman
24. I have been called by all three of my brother's names
23. I have seen all the boys in my immediate family in a dress
22. My favorite family history stories are in a book called Don't Let the Truth Get in the Way of a Good Story
21. I am a truck girl, I want one so bad
20. My first car's name was Kricket because she made a chirping noise ever since I bought her
19. I often wish I lived back when girls wore fancy dresses all the time, provided that I was one of the rich girls that got to wear them
18. I have a thing for crinoline dresses
17. I like to hang out with tall people, honestly all my good friends are at least 3 inches taller than me
16. I love to cook, I want to open a restaurant with my family, who also like to cook
15. I am good at making up stories about myself that aren't true
14. I was so yellow when I was born that my parents called me the Yellow Rose of Texas
13. My mom stayed in the hospital the longest with me even though I had siblings that were in the hospital longer than I was
12. I always wanted a sister so sometimes I would put my youngest brother in a dress and call him Jessica, but I didn't put a rag on his head
11. I almost lit my house on fire with the help of my older brother
10. My older brother and I use to get in my mom's spice cabinet and mix potions for my younger brother, he always drank them
9. I was an officer in the FFA
8. I place in the top 10 all three years on my judging team in the FFA
7. I took best of show for biscuit at the county fair when I was 9 years old
6. I am really vein and have been know to stare at myself in the mirror for hours (okay maybe not that long, but still)
5. I hate being the break upper, I would rather be the break uppie
4. I love to dance and sometimes I will dance to the music in my head
3. I hate unloading the dishwasher, I would rather load it
2. I am not ticklish unless it is a boy, and even then sometimes I can control myself, unless I think he is cute and then I am a goner
1. I have weird toes, I know of only two other people that have toes like mine (I live in Arizona so I have seen a lot of feet) and I am related to them. Everyone that has seen my toes says they are short and stubby and I have to agree
That was much harder than I thought. Cheese.
Monday, July 21, 2008
Flying Pigs
So my mom has two humming bird feeders out front which she has to refill on a daily basis, if not more frequently. The cause of this is because my mom's humming bird food is really good. No one else we know (there are quite a few people around here that have humming bird feeders) have to fill their feeders up so often.It was raining one Sunday and during a break all these birds came to eat what they could before the rain started again. They were a little leery of me at first, but hunger won out and they ate anyway. I took a ton
of pictures, but it is hard holding a camera steady when humming birds are flying at you (they are incredibly territorial) and with lightning striking pretty close.It is very rare to see humming birds perch when they eat (it happened twice while I was taking pictures and if I moved, they flew away). It was really cool to get close to the humming birds.
It also is pretty rare for more than one humming bird to feed at a time, again they are territorial. My mom's food is so good that there will be birds at almost every feed blossoms
(10 total, 6 on one, 4 on the other) and there will be bird waiting "in line". It is really funny to see when a bird gets too close while waiting and they get chased away. They are silly little birds and I enjoy watching them.Bugs
I have noticed as I have been on the computer at night that there a ton of tiny flying bugs in my house. I have killed at least three tonight, but that doesn't even begin to compare to some nights. They like to land on my screen and I squish them because I don't like it when they take off and fly in my face. It is nasty.
My dad has the same problem in the office (I am in the front room). His solution is to jump up and start clapping and banging the walls. The first time he did this I was a little confused. It was all quiet and then then he started clapping. I walked by the office and there he was turning around and clapping at bugs. I should have gotten a video.
My dad has the same problem in the office (I am in the front room). His solution is to jump up and start clapping and banging the walls. The first time he did this I was a little confused. It was all quiet and then then he started clapping. I walked by the office and there he was turning around and clapping at bugs. I should have gotten a video.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Kettle Corn
I have a love affair with kettle corn. I stood for an hour in the rain waiting for it. I was soaked by the time I got to the front of the line. It was so worth it. I wish I had more.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Late Again
Here I am, up late again, and I am actually tired and want to go to sleep. I just wanted to take moment and say that it is difficult to type when you are laying on your stomach. Your arms don't have the movement that they would if you were sitting up. Yet this is how I am comfortable at the moment.
I am excited for tomorrow though. I get to leave the house. I have been inside all week and without a vehicle of my own, I can't go anywhere without asking first. I really need a job so I can get a car. Mom and I are making meal plans so we can go to the store. We are going to try healthy food, which I am chill with because we always tweak it to make it taste good.
I am worried about my stomach. I have felt like something is scraping my insides for the past couple of days. I haven't ever felt like this. I would tell my mom but she would freak out and I don't have any insurance so it doesn't matter anyway.
I just have to finish three more parts and then I will be done with a question and then I will go to sleep. I might work on my two other questions, it depends on how I am feeling in a few. I might be too tired to do anything.
I am excited for tomorrow though. I get to leave the house. I have been inside all week and without a vehicle of my own, I can't go anywhere without asking first. I really need a job so I can get a car. Mom and I are making meal plans so we can go to the store. We are going to try healthy food, which I am chill with because we always tweak it to make it taste good.
I am worried about my stomach. I have felt like something is scraping my insides for the past couple of days. I haven't ever felt like this. I would tell my mom but she would freak out and I don't have any insurance so it doesn't matter anyway.
I just have to finish three more parts and then I will be done with a question and then I will go to sleep. I might work on my two other questions, it depends on how I am feeling in a few. I might be too tired to do anything.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Bad Friend?
I should be in bed, but my computer hasn't finished its virus check yet and it hasn't had one for a long time. I have this time, so I thought I would put links to other people's blog on my page so I wouldn't have to keep looking on facebook for all of them. I never realized how many of my friends have blogs. I was surprised. So here comes my question: does it make me a bad friend to not give out my blog address and read theirs. It is an interesting question. If I ever leave a comment on their post they would have my blog address, but then I can always be anonymous. It is something to ponder.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
My Nephew
My nephew likes me! He still doesn't want to be alone with me, but he doesn't run away or ignore me. He just said my name, which almost brought tears to my eyes. What joy!
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Thinking...
I have had a few days to reflect about my move back to Arizona, and I am pensive. There are so many things that I would like to do, and there are so many options open to me. I really just want to get married and have a family. I don't really want a career, I wan t a husband and little kids to call me mom. It is what I have wanted all along. Sure my bachelors is nice and I am sure is will come in handy, but my education has always been a side goal.
Watching my parents together is an honor. I know that they love each other and I want to one day have what they have together. It just hurts sometimes. The one thing that I want is out of my reach and I don't understand why. My heart aches when I see happy couples. My worry with this yearning in my heart is that I will settle just so I can get what I want. I don't want to end up in a divorce. I see what a poor marriage can do to woman and that isn't what I want. I know that making a marriage work is hard and that being a parent is even more difficult (in fact I am petrified at the thought of raising children).
I am hesitant to write all of my feelings down like this because I know that some will be able to read this, and they might interpret my musings as desperate, but that isn't the case. I am sure I could find someone to marry me just because, but I have no desire to have a relationship like that. Settling doesn't get me where my parents are, or where my Grandma and Grandpa Burrell are, and where Jason and Velika are.
Watching my parents together is an honor. I know that they love each other and I want to one day have what they have together. It just hurts sometimes. The one thing that I want is out of my reach and I don't understand why. My heart aches when I see happy couples. My worry with this yearning in my heart is that I will settle just so I can get what I want. I don't want to end up in a divorce. I see what a poor marriage can do to woman and that isn't what I want. I know that making a marriage work is hard and that being a parent is even more difficult (in fact I am petrified at the thought of raising children).
I am hesitant to write all of my feelings down like this because I know that some will be able to read this, and they might interpret my musings as desperate, but that isn't the case. I am sure I could find someone to marry me just because, but I have no desire to have a relationship like that. Settling doesn't get me where my parents are, or where my Grandma and Grandpa Burrell are, and where Jason and Velika are.
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