Temple

As I was at the temple last night, I knew Jarom was there. We shared some moments together and got to talk spirit to spirit. Let me start off by saying that I know that I belong to the true church. I know that my family was sealed for time and all eternity. I know that I will see Jarom again. However, I have been worried that perhaps some of the things that he did would disqualify him form the Celestial Kingdom. Was my baby brother too far gone to be saved?

I received my answer last night. No, he is not disqualified from the Celestial Kingdom. Does he have things he needs to work on, yes. Will the atonement cover all that needs to be redeemed, yes. I can have my brother with me forever.

I understand that I still need to work toward my own salvation, and that Jarom will too, but we can do it. All of my family can.

Run Away

I wrote in my actually journal last night. It was nice to get things out that I don't intend to share with anyone. Perhaps that is the reason that today, I just want to run away. Maybe if I run far enough, everything will go back to normal. I know it won't but the thought of it is wonderful.

Today My Heart Hurts

My heart has been slowly breaking since Jarom's passing. Today, my heart hurts. The weight of missing him is starting to sink in. I long for just one more chance to hug him. What am I going to do without him?

I know there is beauty in my sorrow. I have felt it and seen it. I have felt comfort and solace. I know I will see my brother again, I just wish I didn't have to wait so long.